Thursday, November 29, 2012

29/11/2012

I am awake and it isn't 6 am yet. Today Bud is having his dental surgery. He needs to be at the hospital for 6:45 this morning so the adults are all awake as are both boys at this unholy hour. When Drake is off to daycare I think I'll be going back to sleep maybe. I have pipecleaners now so I need to start tearing the paper for paper mache and forming the armature for the doll I have in mind. I think I'll be using the paper strips for other projects too.
I am headed to litmania after this because I have several lists I want to add and I need to check my life list (bucket list), to see where I am on it.Not much to say today, too early maybe.

Tuesday, November 27, 2012

101 in 1001

1001-562= 439 days left, so just a bit over 14 months left to complete my 101 goals.  I have completed 16 but to be fair some of them are dependent on others being finished like the poetry ones and some of the others. I have the stuff I need to complete quite a few of them but can't seem to focus on them long enough to complete them.

14 months = 60 weeks which means that though I may not reach the 140 I can reach 180 to 150 in the time I have left if I work at it like I am supposed to. For instance the 100-200-100 plan, (sit-ups, push-ups, squats), can give me a lot of strength workouts and training for a marathon will give me cardio, then the dancing & tai chi will help with flexibility and mental discipline. These are all things from my 101 list that when worked through together will result in a net weight loss of some sort, perhaps enough to even reach my goal weight

Concentrating on crafts , writing & drawing will keep me away from facebook and the other game sites that are so counter productive and on my list to avoid. In this way my goals help me to reach them if I were to concentrate on them instead of spending all of my time playing stupid games and generally vegetating in front of my computer all day.
 
So where should I begin? Well since I have the space set up it makes sense to begin with the sit-ups etc. Walking with the dog everyday will increase my metabolism and strengthen my legs so I can begin to run on a daily basis. Working on my Christmas presents will keep me away from the computer and thus away from games.. I don't have all of my knitting needles yet but I do have two sets which I can use for various projects like knitting a doll and a teddy bear and maybe even starting on a top down sweater. The writing and art stuff are a bit more challenging but I think now that my paints and ink are here I can begin to focus on them more.

I can do this if I really want to, I can even finish all of the remaining goals if I begin right away, like in the morning with the exercises. Motivation, I need motivation :). Wish me luck

27/11/2012

Have you ever awakened one day and wondered what happened to you? A few days ago I woke up and realized that it was nearly the end of 2012 and I had done nothing for the last few years except play games on Facebook and through IWIN. I also realized that all I really have to show from the last few years is an expanding girth and a long list of physical and mental issues to go with it. Two years in a row I signed up for National Novel Writing Month and not written word one beyond a short outline of what I wanted to write. It feels as if I have spent the last three years in some sort of vacant state which given the amount of anti-depressant medication I have been taking might not be too far from the truth. I remember starting all kinds of things but usually not getting past a couple of weeks before I would stop doing what ever it was and go back to playing games and general vegetating. I was a relatively healthy 40 but my 50's to date have been one long rest period which I'm sure can't be right but which I feel powerless to change. I know this sloth is not good for me but for some reason I can't get through it to a more active and productive life. Certainly I don't feel happy but then I don't feel much of anything, that of course is a barrier I need to get through.
I was just thinking I did it again, I was about to start proper mental counseling in Hamilton and I moved, now I am in limbo again, on top of that I was in the process of applying for ODSP and soon my time to get the papers in will have run out and I will be having to deal with the job hunting stuff all over again. In truth I am not sure I want to work a regular job but every business idea I've had takes so much start up money that it becomes an impossibility before it gets past the planning stages or maybe I just don't have the information handy I need. I know there is seed money available out there but I am unsure how to go about getting it.
Strangely it is the writing of this blog that that came to me this morning and a reminder of another blog I used to have called Cheryl's Place a plain simple name for a space that was to hold my business ideas IE the services I offered, which are myriad. I have experience in a lot of different areas and was seeking some way to combine  them but it just never gelled for me. I had the bits and pieces but couldn't figure out how to get the word out in a cost effective way. Also since some of then require specific ingredients ie content that also costs money I kept coming up against the same block. Money is needed to make money and even a small business liscense can be expensive if you have no money to begin with. I am on welfare and since I am single that gives me a bare minimum of $550 a month to live on, my rent and share of the utilities takes $445 of that, leaving me with a grand total of $105 to live on. It was $205 but I had to pay back my ex-husband, he loaned me $1200 so we could get the car road worthy with the understanding that I would not receive my support for 13 months. 12 months to pay off the principle the 13th month to pay off the interest which is very high.
Still I suppose if I really wanted to I could use that $100 to get started. I am using Facebook and Twitter and I can make them more useful if I used them to advertise also there must be other publically available , social type networks I can use to put the word out there. Even google ad-sense can be used though I think I need to make a different id to use as the secondary for my google account since I can't remember my ad-sense password and don't want to go through a long and drawn out security checkout. I know they are good things but I find it annoying that they assume you have a mobile phone and that they don't offer to check using a land line.
I need to think about this more. Hopefully I'll be back to talk at you again in the near future.