Do you ever wish that the future would open its doors and let you see what was coming?
Have you ever wished that you knew exactly what to do and when to have the best thing in the world happen for you?
How about just having what it takes to make that one step, that first step that could change your life all together?
I would love for one of these things to happen for me. I am lazy, I want something to happen without any effort on my part. At least that is what the "normals" say. You have to expend energy to get energy. I have no energy, all I seem to want to do is sleep, in the winter months. All those grey days and long nights cause me to curl up and sleep until the sun comes back. It has been like that for as long as I can remember.
No amount of wishing can change a habit so engrained. Ambition is needed and I have none, I have never felt the need to be more than I was. Ok not strictly true, I want to have enough income so that if I desire to spend money I can. Enough so that my bills are paid and I have food enough that I do not starve. I have reached that point in my life where I have few needs but oh so many wants.
In the end though unless my partner wins the lottery and shares with me most of my dreams will not come true. I simply do not care enough nor do I have energy enough to do more than get through the day to day of living.