Tuesday, April 26, 2016

Spring Must Haves

For me Spring is second only to Autumn as my favourite time of year. I love the fact that I can start wearing dresses again.

I have a list of things I look for to tell me that Spring has arrived. First and foremost is the return of the Canadian Goose. When I hear their call I know that Spring is near-by.
To learn more about the Canadian Goose and hear the sound I wait for go to this link: Canadian Goose Facts.

When the snow begins to melt I look for daffodils, they and the black squirrel usually come out around the same time.

The final three things I look for are rain, robins and trees wearing new green coats.

When the leaves arrive I know that we have truly left winter behind.

Once all of these things begin to happen I turn my attention to myself. I buy new shoes every year usually after the first rain as that tends to make the snow go away. The new shoes are the only thing I must replace on a yearly basis since I tend to wear them out quickly.

The things I dig out of storage are an umbrella and my spring jacket. What are your signs for Spring? What do you buy every year? What are the first items you pull out of storage when the warmer air comes?

Tuesday, April 19, 2016

I am ...

After only four days of sunshine and spending less time in front of the computer I am actually feeling a small measure of happiness. This means that my serotonin though inhibited is actually modifiable by physical activity and less time spent on my butt.

Though the doctor told me this and I do remember it from before I got addicted to computers it is still a pleasant surprise. I just need to change the addiction, granted easier said than done in this age of machines still it is a possibility.

Adding to my pleasure is the assurance that Spring really is here as witnessed by myself on my walk yesterday.

I saw two robins gathering material for a nest, blue eyed grass peeping through
someones lawn, a few daffodils still in bud but with the yellow of the flower very visible and finally I saw dandelions in full bloom. Of all these things I was only able to get a picture of the dandelions, I tried for the robins but they flew away before I could get my camera out. I was so enthralled by the violets and daffodils it never occurred to me to photograph them.

First my photo:
April 18th, 2016

Now photos I went looking for to illustrate the other things I saw:
A few of these

A lawn full of these
Two of these
Laughing gleefully ... I LOVE SPRING!

Saturday, April 16, 2016


Back again... two days in a row thats not happened in awhile.

I have been feeling the urge to start writing again but after so long away, like two years maybe more of scattershot it is difficult to get back in the writing groove
I am looking at sunshine and preparing for a walk in history, I am applying for an apartment in a building that used to be a church in a neighbourhood I spent my happiest years in. On top of that I met my first husband while sitting on the front steps of this building while dealing with a broken heart.

I wonder sometimes if I hadn't been so naive if I would have married him first and been the mother of his children instead of the woman he did marry. Such foolishness to believe in the 80's that best friends shared everything including their girlfriends. Needless to say that fellow is not my KISA's best buddy any more.

KISA was the nick name I gave him when he rescued me from the steps of that church and he called me gypsy rose. I took that as my nickname for a long time because I felt it described me well.

He said I reminded him of Gypsy Rose Lee because of her style. From what I have read and seen of her I can't disagree, however I took a different meaning for it later in my life.

That of a true rose. One that spreads out or "travels"; its pretty but under the pretty there are thorns.

ok frustration setting in
Reminder: check a URL before you paste it, an URL without a http:// causes blogger to choke.

Bloody hell in searching for a good image to explain what I meant by a traveling rose I lost all track of what I was talking about so I'm gonna grab a coffee and read a bit until it is time to head out to check this apartment out

Friday, April 15, 2016

Once more into the fray

I did not go back to look but I know I've sat here and written any number of letters about my body health and mental issues. I have made long strides towards my goal only to fall back to old habits and bad behaviour. Yesterday was one of those days when it all comes back to me and hits me over the head.

The cure for obesity is exercise and a healthy diet; the cure to depression is exercise and diet; the cure for Fibro is ..... you guessed it exercise and diet.

I have a pretty good handle on my diet though knowing what size a portion is and how many portions of something you need to eat each day doesn't help when you don't have the money to buy what you should be eating. At least I know I have a good handle on things, exercise .... is a whole other kettle of fish.

Aside: Yeah I know cliches are boring but hey I think in cliches a lot cause they sum up so much in so few words.

Back on topic or rather the thing I can't seem to get a handle on. Serotonin is a neurotransmitter your body produces that keeps your mood balanced and my brain doesn't make enough of them however exercise helps to elevate the serotonin level in your brain and bring a high or happiness element with it. That is why a lot of people once they catch the exercise bug continue to push themselves, the high becomes an addiction.

Now as an addiction it is one of the better ones and provides all kinds of benefits like weight loss and higher energy levels. I have determined that I need to replace one addiction (the computer) with another one (exercise). How I am going to do that... well lets just say this time I don't have a fully formed plan.

I am beginning with the FlyLady cause my house is a mess and she is really good at helping people get their housework and stuff into routines. As the doctor said even a little bit of movement each day will help as long as it is daily and causes your heart rate to rise a bit. Since my apartment looks like a disaster area right now it will take me a couple of weeks to get it under control.

Once I start that is... I will be doing laundry and taking out the recycling later on in the day, that is my beginning. I might even get enough energy to run the vacuum cleaner. Tomorrow I will be walking to take a look at a possible apartment and that may be it for the day, though I am hoping to get my dishes done and my toilet cleaned as well.

Now to some of you these things would not count as exercise in your head but for someone like me who spends most of her time on her butt in front of the computer that is more movement than this body has seen in a month. The problem from there is going to be finding and making myself do other chores and getting outside at least twice a week.

Though technically I have other options and needs beginning with getting photo ID for non-drivers, dropping off papers to housing and taking the doctors prescription to the YMCA and getting started on the 2 month prescription for exercise. Yeah I know blew me away too but there really is an exercise prescription you can get from your doctor. As noted above it is only good for two months but that is long enough for exercise to become a habit.

With the prescription that would bring me to June before I need to add more reasons to get away from the computer and move my body. By June the summer sessions at Activity Haven, YMCA and other places will just be beginning so I can look into them to choose my next steps. Until then I will continue to make housework a daily part of daily movement plan and add in the walk to the YMCA once or twice a week

Friday, April 1, 2016

April 1 2016

Second quarter 2016, one quarter of the year gone. I am not sure why this my 56th year I am so focused on the passing of time. It is as if I am counting down to something but I don't know what.

Actually if I figure the year from my birthday it is half a year since this focus on time began.

I am dealing with the life I have been given, poorly I feel but I am dealing. I have begun to use a white board to write down the things I need to do. You know the everyday stuff like taking out the recycling and laundry. It can take a week or more before I actually do what I need to do but having the reminder there is a start

With the coming of Spring the pain in my knees is lessened enough that I do not need the cane all the time which pleases me no end.

Pixie is a writer I read often both because she has an incredible sense of humour and because she like me is dealing with chronic illness. She is dealing a lot better than I am because she is out there and shares everything that is going on with her and her family. I wish I could deal as well as she does.

Pixie herself would probably say she isn't dealing well given her current situation but we all have periods of denial and screwing up our health plan.

I have done it actually last year I stopped paying attention to the diabetes stuff cause I just didn't want to give up sugar but when you sugar spikes into the 8.5 - 9 range you gotta take care of it. I figured if I took my Metformin like a good little girl it didn't matter what I ate or how often I ate until it did. After the second time my head went all fuzzy and I passed out I figured out it was a sugar spike and started to pay attention to how I was eating again. Or rather what I was eating that caused the dizziness and passing out. I narrowed it down to chocolate and chips oh and the odd maple syrup/sugar sandwich.

Yeah I know. dumb and careless, The other thing I had stopped doing was getting my AC tests done regularly. I know there are more letters than that but it is what I call it cause I can't remember the rest of it. When I went to see my doctor about my knees he was a bit upset with me about that and made me get one done then and there.

He also increased my dosage of Welbutin cause I was in a real deep depression when I went in to see him. In a couple of weeks I gotta go back after the blood test form is complete and see where I am with the diabetes and the depression. I don't feel as if the increase has helped much but I am inside looking out and thus not really in a good position to judge.

I know I have managed to collect a lot of in progress items so my reputation for never finishing anything is still intact.  ...Smile...