Monday, August 14, 2017

Urban Shaman by C.E. Murphy for Reading Challenge 2017-August

Read an author with the same initials as you: Cherylann Marois - C.E. Murphy
Urban Shaman - eBook
This particular book has been on my to read list since the spring so I was glad that it worked for this months prompt.

The heroine, (yes, strong, female, my favorite type), is an odd mix of black Irish and native Indian. These both have strong mythologies and the heroines straddles both of them as does the story.

From page one I was engaged in the story, so much so that I read it in one day. I simply could not stop!

Thursday, August 10, 2017

Moments

I feel all fidgity and tired at the same time and I don't think it is the fault of the gelato. I was babysitting this morning for a few hours then had to mail out some letters. I bought ice cream and the bus was taking too long to come so I walked home.

I feel like I should work on some of the swaps I have coming up but nothing is due for a week and it only takes a few hours to make something suitable. At the same time my bed is calling my name.

Think I will lay down for a bit even though it is nearly 4 pm. Maybe I'll feel better afterwards

Thursday, August 3, 2017

Mental Struggles

Have you ever had a memory or a thought take up residence in your mind and refuse to go away?

I am having such a struggle with myself at the moment. The worst thing is that it is a matter of jealousy and anger.

I love my husband but he is a wuss where his brother is concerned, (sorry hon but it's true), and that has caused some friction between us on occasion. Since their mother came to live with them I have refused to spend my usual week a month at his place. It was only a few days ago that I figured out why.

When I moved to be closer to my job it appeared that I had left my husband but I hadn't not really we just took a small breather. When I came back I did not feel like I belonged there, not really, and it only got worse which is why I jumped at the chance to leave a second time.

I made a simple request a room where I could do my crafts. I need natural light and I put forward two options, the spare room or the day room. Both of these were vetoed by his brother and I ended up in a dark basement room surrounded by computer bits.

It hurt me really badly that he refused to fight for what I needed instead of bowing to his brother. Now that his mother is there she has all the things I needed. A room of her own to do with as she pleases and a bedroom. OK I didn't want a bedroom of my own but the other, I needed it.

It is kind of pathetic but I feel a little jealous because she is sure of her place in the house and in their lives, I have not been sure of anything for a long time. I also worry what she thinks of my arrangement with Rob, it is the opposite to what she had with her husband.

Anger and jealousy can make fools of us all I guess. I want to be brave but I am not sure I have it in me.