Monday, March 31, 2014

Monday March 31

March is going out like a lamb which bodes well for April, I wish I were doing so well. A number of things have come up that I am working through.

With the warm weather finally arriving I have had a small renewal of energy though I woke up with a miserable cold this morning. Yesterday it was just a runny nose and I figured it would go away. It didn't it added a sore throat to itself and gritty eyes. I should after 30 years of this be ready for my annual Spring cold but I never am. And this will happen again in October when the fall/winter change begins, I won't be ready for it then either.

I am reorganizing my room again, I had to, that bed in the middle of the floor is just not comfortable for me. I am also pissed off with the pile of stuff that is still sitting in front of my closet after a year and one truckload of stuff given away or thrown out. I do not know how come I have so much stuff, though I guess part of it is because though I downsize every year I keep getting new stuff. Never as much as I got rid of but still a fair amount.

I have considered getting rid of all of the magazines and stuff that I have been collecting for journalling but I always decide that I might need them. I suppose if I got in the habit of actually using them before going to paint, crayons and coloured pencils I would use them up quickly but I always think of art in terms of paint first, paper after. Yes journalling is equivalent to art in my head and My journal holds both.

Been thinking about other things too, like the portable kitchen idea, it is still not a for sure because want I want to do has never been done before in the size I'm thinking about at least not that I have been able to find.

I found this idea at Giggleberry Creations. It is made from an old TV cabinet which would be just about the right size for my room and for me since I am just a bit over 5 feet tall.  I have a 4' fridge and a 4' freezer, a smallish microwave and toaster oven as well as an induction hot plate, I just need the framework to put them all in. And I would like a permanent place for my wash basin. I don't have running water but it would be neat and tidy. About the only thing this kitchen needs for it to be perfect for me is a bit of counter space which depending on the type of TV cabinet it is could be easily accomplished. I just need to find an old TV cabinet and some money to get the wood I need to finish it. Oh yeah and the energy to do it. This is the most viable option I have found.

Tuesday, March 25, 2014

Today is ...

Today is bright, cause the sun is shining
Today is cold, cause there is snow still
Today is sad, I'm in pain
Today is glad, GS # 1 is nearly potty trained

Today is all of those things and more, a present that I do not appreciate, can not appreciate because of all of the worries I carry from the past and the future. Does that make any sense to you? If I only have today then why do I allow myself to be bogged down by all the maybe's.

When I first heard about treating today as the present it is, I thought about it. I wondered what kind of person could leave the past behind and not worry about the things yet to come? I have real trouble being present in the moment, even though I know this moment will never come again.

And while this quote speaks to me in many ways still I find myself lost in the sadness and anger of the past and the worry about what comes next, plus remembering all of those appointments hurts this old head. It is a riddle I would like to solve except I think the only way to solve it would to lose my memories completely.

Rising in the morning gets harder as I get older though I remember that the older my dad got the earlier he woke up, I guess I just haven't reached that point yet. Though I feel old I am in truth just barely past middle age.

I think the teens and the fifty's are both a major time of change in our lives and I am the equivalent to a fourteen year old this year, which means I have at least thirteen more years to go before I get sane and sensible again. Laugh if you like, I certainly am!

Mother Nature is one tricky bitch. She gives women 10 years for fun, 40 years of misery and then 20 years recovering our sense of humour and relearning to have fun followed by 20 years or so of returning to our helpless infant self. It sucks that we spend our best years wearing ourselves out so that by the time we are able to take time for ourselves we are too tired to do anything.

Okay that was a unexpected rant but true enough, I do not like being this age, the age where I should finally be having some fun on my own terms except that I can't cause after menopause Mother Nature took my body and twisted it all up so I can't do anything much except write and sleep.

Monday, March 17, 2014

March 17, 2014

My friend Sandra Aubrey created this Art piece. It shows an image similar to the one in my head. Though she has used slit paper, it could just as easily be a glass wall or a peep hole in a brick wall. What it reminds me of is the separation I feel from the so called "normal" world. I see eyes looking through a barrier the rest of the person can not breech, looking on as the world moves by. That is how I feel most of the time! Thank you Sandra for creating an image that speaks for me!!!!

Regarding my holiday, it was every bit as much fun as I thought it would be, I have not had time to process all of the images yet but as soon as I do I'll share a few with you. Chinatown on Spadina in Toronto is not a bustling as I remember but I suspect that was because of the cold, Kensington is still a super place to explore. I found a place that has the coolest embroidered pants and I would love to go back as well as several other stores with international overtones. I only photographed one of the Murals there but that is because we spent so much time in China town. We had a sushi treat every night we were there, I love having a proper oriental grocery store nearby, and I finally got to find out what all the fuss was about Menchies. Super Cool!

The weekend at Great Wolf was fun but terribly expensive, if you want to go make sure you have at least $2000 available on your credit card. Mind you it is worth it. The Niagara Village strip is not far away and we got to go to Louis Tussards Wax works and to Ripley's Believe It Or Not Museum of Oddities. Both are definitely worth the visit. We also found a place the specializes in Egyptian Cotton , I found a very comfortable pair of pants there. It's a bit expensive but well worth it! And last but not least we found a place that does real crepes and they make an excellent light lunch or a super sweet treat. Best of all you get to see the whole process!

I'll process the photo's and share a few with you within the next coupla days!

Friday, March 7, 2014

March 7th 2014

I'm off to the Big Smoke for a week, spending some time away from the GS's an a bit of time with my guy.

On the Agenda is a trip to Chinatown and Kensington Market, a trip to Ikea for some mini kitchen ideas, a trip to Ripley's beleive it or not aquarium(we hope), a trip to Dixie Value Mall and to the basket wholesalers winding up with a trip to Great Wolf Lodge. It is going to be a busy seven days!.

My camera battery is charged and I am sure I will have a lot of interesting Photos for you. I will try to check in during the week but if not know that on the 17th I will have a lot to share!

A friend recently shared some of her art with me, I am hoping she will let me share with you.

Wednesday, March 5, 2014

Pinterest - Frozen

I haven't seen this movie but as I was looking through the latest pins on Pinterest I loved the way the words made a strong message and the images tell a whole story. I have not been able to find it's source, the link for the poster just takes me to my twitter page. It has made me want to see the movie for myself, which I will as soon as I can.