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 Trying to see the path ahead of me A trio of years brought many tears More tears than I can stand Three simple lines and in my head I know there are more. My mind is tired and my body hurts I'm not ready to go to the great beyond yet. Novembers Creative Journal Writing Prompts Write all of the poem or a selected verse in your journal. You may choose to use a whole page or just a part. You can also use other colors of ink and different styles of writing. Switch the ink color to every other line or word. Write one thing that made the day great (30) Write a minimum of 500 words per day using the word of the day according to Merriam-Webster Dictionary https://www.merriam-webster.com/word-of-the-day/calendar Enter one Poetry Contest each Week https://www.poetrysoup.com/poetry/contests/ Art Assignments Beginnings: Create a cover page using a colour scheme, words, and images that symbolize November Monthly Collage: Make a collage based on the word: Remembrance Day Drawing:

 October 31-November 1 are the pagan New Years Eve & day and since it comes shortly after my birthday I have selected it as my own as well. My birthday being in the first week of October, thus this is the beginning of my 64th year. I've talked about this before so you can guess what's coming next or maybe not. I use a journal, it is not one thing but everything that happens in the year. This year it is called "Journal of Life November 23 - October 24" and I have begun setting it up, it is a lot of work at first but once it's done, its just a matter of using it. I had hoped to use a preset list of activities each month, but the No Excuses site is gone, so I am creating and recreating my version. As you are aware I have many interests in the creative fields- Writing, Drawing, Photography, Painting etc. This year I'd like to include it with the standard Timer Journal (can't recall what it is called right this moment but it is an appointment book/Tracker t

 Like many creative people I always have several plans in the works, my UFO list is long as is my WTD list (UFO=Unfinished objects, WTD=Want to do). Right now I am trying to work on the following: 1) Learn how to make a short film (Animated, Documentary) 2) Learn to create good page layout (for the poetry) 3) Create a book that consists of my poetry and my art 4) Write a publishable short story or two from previously created ones. 5) Create a series of digital art pieces using my own photography I have Adobe CC but it does not work properly because they are not paid for. I needed applications that can do what I need so I downloaded and am learning several Open Source applications for practice and basic training. If they go well then and only then will I rent the Adobe CC ones. I happen to have a membership to a digital library that allows me to download books on nearly any subject which is where I have been finding books to teach me what I need to know. That and I have been seeking web

 The happy thoughts at least let me sleep reasonably well last night, the last time I got out of bed was at 2:30 a.m. to relieve myself, next thing I knew it was 9:00 a.m. If you are not E you probably wonder why that is a big deal. The fact of the matter is it has been a while since I only woke up once in the night, I am usually up 3 or 4 times a night, so to me it is a big deal. Now 2.5 hours later I have eaten, taken my medication and I am yawning and my eyes are heavy. Perhaps because of the painkiller I take 4x a day, perhaps because of depression perhaps not. It is what it is. My thinking is fractured and my energy is nearly non-existent. But that is not why I am here today, I promised E I would make an effort to write every day because strangely writing helps me sort thoughts out and put them in a sensible order. I have been journaling for a long time and it has always helped when my brain gets fuzzy like this if I do it. A couple of months ago I walked into a burial service to

 I am sitting here in my own home fighting the depression that I thought was gone. It started funny enough in a place I was a year ago, listening to Scarlett cry because her dad would not do what she wanted him to. Hearing Breanna's voice on the phone just knocked me down. I am not sure what made me go over the edge but I'm sitting here on the edge of tears.  I had a great time last night, for my birthday we did a taste test using chicken strips and General's Hot Sauces This is the selection we tried. I have been watch something on Youtube called the TRY channel with E, I love all the stuff they sample and really wanted to do something like it. We were watching their video on the sauces and when E said he had the collection above, I thought cool! When he suggested we bring it down when we came down for us to do a try night I was excited.  We went out to Swiss Chalet with my daughter & family and as we were leaving I was talking about the taste test thing. my SIL was int