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Tonight

 I am sitting here in my own home fighting the depression that I thought was gone. It started funny enough in a place I was a year ago, listening to Scarlett cry because her dad would not do what she wanted him to.

Hearing Breanna's voice on the phone just knocked me down. I am not sure what made me go over the edge but I'm sitting here on the edge of tears. 

I had a great time last night, for my birthday we did a taste test using chicken strips and General's Hot Sauces


This is the selection we tried. I have been watch something on Youtube called the TRY channel with E, I love all the stuff they sample and really wanted to do something like it. We were watching their video on the sauces and when E said he had the collection above, I thought cool! When he suggested we bring it down when we came down for us to do a try night I was excited. 

We went out to Swiss Chalet with my daughter & family and as we were leaving I was talking about the taste test thing. my SIL was interested so I suggested they come over and we would do it together. It was fun, the best birthday since my 60ith!

My daughter tried to videotape it but we hadn't set it up right so it didn't turn out so great but I've uploaded it below, the woman is me and GS#3 is the child. One of the men is E and the other is my SIL you guess which is which.

We are thinking about doing it again sometime in the near future but we aren't sure when.


Next time we will set it up so my daughter can film it properly. 

Writing about the happy made me feel less sad, guess I'm gonna have to do that more often.

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