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 If I asked you to run away with me would you?

Before you answer there are conditions:

You would have to leave your job, your home and your family. Before you ask, I would be doing the same.

You would only be able to bring one laptop and enough clothes for a week

There would be no plan other than to hop on a bus to Toronto and then grab the first train leaving the station.

Would you run away with me? I am confident what you would say but I still needed to ask the question. Sometime in the next two years I am going to do just that. I am so done with this town.

I am done living my life the way I "should", I want to live my life the way I want.

I thought maybe some land and a house were all I would need to be happy. I had that with you and look where we are now. Living different lives in different cities and both of us content with that for the most part.

Except that I am no longer content, my feet have been getting itcher and itcher for the past couple of years. I don't think I was ever meant to stay in one place for decades like you. 

I thought I had finally found a place I could stay for the rest of my life but it isn't. I have watched this town become worse and worse. When I first came there were no beggars on the street or dozens of people without homes. The biggest addiction was alcohol, now there is a drug that can give you an excellent ride or bring death and you never know which until it happens.

This run-in with cancer has me reevaluating my life and finding it boring and safe, neither of which I ever wanted. So yeah, its 4 AM and I can't sleep, all I keep thinking is I need to get as far away from this town as I can, maybe even out of Canada entirely, though I am not sure where I would go or how I would survive but at least I wouldn't be bored.

So I will repeat my question, If I ran away would you come with me?


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