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 As you are aware I claim Paganism as my Spiritual practice, Nov 1st is our New Years day and with the completion of the radiation treatments I am finally able to look at things more clearly than I have in the last couple of years. 

Yeah, first Covid then Breast Cancer been a real interesting few years. Not happy but interesting.

Yesterday I started the Estrogen blockers and today I am having my first hot flash since I turned 60, while I am not happy about that the alternative as my everlovin would say is worse. Quite frankly less than one year for the process from diagnosis to treatment isn't bad but is not something I want to repeat any time soon so menopause a second time. Though at least this is only 5 years unlike the ten of the first time.

Once I brought it to my doctor's attention things moved quickly but taking it to the doctor was something I delayed for a couple of months because at first, I thought it was from a fall I took in the winter. Note to self the next time I feel a lump on my chest I will not take that long to get to him.

On the 10th I see my personal doctor after nearly a year, I have chosen a talk appointment because I have a lot of questions to ask him. I had a whole head of questions when I made the appointment but I didn't write them down so I will have to do that between now and then

I started to plan the next year in October but I am having a hard time figuring out just what I need, the wants are easy. 

  • A library of 10,000 books which I am already halfway to ... that one is easy as long as my supplier gets back online, something about a provider canceling their security certificate, then it will take me awhile as I am limited to 50 books a day.
  • A return to education geared towards Counseling preferably with an art basis. I am finding all kinds of information on CBT, ACT and other types of counseling. I had no idea there were so many specializations under that title. Everything from Art therapy to music therapy to business counseling come under that title.
  • A life that is completely me- whoever that is. Very generalized because I am struggling with defining who I am (still) and what I need to thrive.
Thrive becoming the operative word of the year. 

Definition of thrive

intransitive verb

1: to grow vigorously : FLOURISH (last years word which did not work out so well for me)
2: to gain in wealth or possessions : PROSPER
3: to progress toward or realize a goal despite or because of circumstances —often used with onthrives on conflict



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