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Still here

 Been dealing with my stuff but I can feel the Depression lifting so that is good news.

Did my first bone density test and my first squish and scan since the  cancer with two all clears! Count me a happy camper and incredibly grateful for both of those things. Even my weight and blood sugar are in a good place. From 240 to 202 lbs, sorry not sure the kg equivalent, when I think of my weight I always think pounds.

One more thing, I'm headed out of Province with my Everloving, going to get to West Edmonton Mall finally, and a night at the Calgary Stampede, maybe. I am on my way to heaven!

Oh and one more bonus item, I get to fly on a jet to get there, first time ever!

I am so lucky that my Everloving always finds good stuff for us to do.

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