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 another night another mess. If, no, when I see the one called no pants I will kill her or at least try. There is no reason acceptable to bring garbage into another persons home and throw it about. This wing holds people with health issues and even if she isn't leaving garbage in the main halls it is still in the building and likely to compromise their health and my own.

the stress being caused by one person in unbeleivable. my mental health isn't strong at the best of times and there are others in this wing that it is affecting even worse. I will destroy her for what is happening in this building, her and everyone else who mistreats this building inside or out.

there is no reason for this to happen, there is no reason strong enough to excuse this kind of behaviour. I was willing to allow her and others shelter but it was with the understanding that they would treat this building with the respect and care they would give their own home. I am done trying.

TVM does nothing, we spent a week myself and a group of 5 others cleaning up around this building to welcome spring only to have it destroyed in one night and the damage continues on a nightly basis. I can't even sleep because of what I'm afraid will happen next.

We have had apartments broken into, found feces in the hall and tonight there was food left in the middle of the hallway. Food that was emptied out of garbage bags and left on the floor to rot and stink and cause a health hazard.

I am done being nice to her and any other outsider that comes near this place. If this is how they repay us then they need to die. I am willing to kill to protect my home and I will. I am done talking, the next time I see her I fully intend to grab her and beat the living shit out of her and if I have my garbage picker I will stick it in her chest.

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